Restless

I've been restless, lately.

Perhaps I don't do so well on my own - wondering where the hell my errant partner is. I have bounced this off 2 of my closest friends and thay are angry on my behalf. No news, no phone call, no SMS, no email.

NO NOTHING.

I hate dangling on a string like this. And knowing myself, I will move from concerned, through to irritated, through to angry, then finally through to thoroughly pissed off. And there's no going back after pissed off.

Write? And tell him how frustrated I am? He reads my mails, can't reply though. Apparently it's difficult when you're on a ship with only sattellite for connection. Intermittant. We've had this conversation before and the emails have always been sporadic. But they've never gone silent completely.

Argh. Commented the other day to Bernie, sometimes one has to weigh the balance between being single and happily dating (no real depth in one's relationships). Or being in love, with the incredible highs and lows. How do things even out? Will they even out?

Perhaps I am morosely low-spirited on the MasterChief. He's the closest one that ever came to my ideal. He makes me happy (when he's here), he's old school, which I absolutely adore. And he loves me to death.

But love alone is not enough. So many other factors. So many other things that make up a relationship.


Men! Love! Life! ARGH