Quiet

Things have been pretty quiet for me.

I seem to have developed an aggressive disinterest in what's going on around me right now; guess I need a little quiet time to myself. Not quite sure why. Not sure for how long. I could possibly be running away from reality.

apoe posted a comment on a previous post and he said "It may well be that he is ducking out of his feeling inadequate and while that might not be consolation to you at this time.... what it does is this : It makes you available to a stronger, better, more available person for you to adore and devote yourself to and in return to be adored by."

I can't read that sort of stuff in unexpected places. I start to get upset again. I was all quiet and calm for days and when I read that, sadness and anger all over again. The entire comment was gracious and warm and supportative and I was grateful. Very grateful. But I can't read my email at work, nowadays.
*wry grin*
Anyhoo, I'll be back.... but... posting will be real slow for now. For now I just need to come to grips with things and how my situation's changed. I need to try and get to grips with the now and try and move on. I'll be fine. I try and tell myself I *am* fine.


But you guys play nice for now. If I need to send out a hit squad I'll put the word out. lol.