Here we go again!

Nah... I may not be as jaded as I suspected of myself....

Been sleeping a lot. Us old folks need plenty of shut-eye when we force our bodies to work upside down. And sleeping during the day's not really good for you. But very necessary if you do the overnight shift. Heh.

But I digress... what I *wanted* to say was that I worked last night. And normally it doesn't bug me to work new year's eve. I haven't partied on new year's eve for the longest time. And I don't think anything of it.

However, as I made my way in to work last night, I found myself feeling a little maudlin... How did it come to this? That I could work on new year's eve and not bat an eyelid? Do any of my friend's think about me on such an occasion as this? Why do I miss them? Yeah! I miss them! Do I really want to go through life as an urban hermit? I know there is a difference between wanting to be alone, and being lonely. But why do I feel both of these emotions now? Why now? Am I being sentimental? Me? Sentimental? Hah! And this took, like, the 5 minutes I used to smoke my pre-work ciggie.....

But it made me think.
By golly, I think I WAS being sentimental. And ... erm... I don't think I should be embarressed about it. *wry grin* Tough, armoured old biddies are allowed to show chinks in their metal plating on occasion.

So I am thankful for family, who've let me go my own way against the grain in Singapore.

Thankful for friends who DO remember me. My close ones who care.

Thankful for a job that let's me do the things I want to do.

Thankful, actually, for a number of things that have become very important to me.

So party away.... a moot point for lots of us, who've already ushered in the new year. But give thanks for the things that truely matter. I must remind myself of this all the time. It's GOOD to remmeber what counts.

So happy new year's, you lot.
May you always be surrounded by those that love you.
May your life always have moments of contentment.
May your family hold you always close.


Big virtual hugs to all. I'm not ashamed to say it. woo!