Perhaps...

.... it's time to get out of the night shift thingie.

I'm tired all the time now. Don't quite know what's happening. Doesn't matter if I sleep 14 hours, or 4. I wake up tired. *shakes head*

Nowadays on my off days, I won't set the alarm. I'll let my body sleep itself out. I used to set the alarm for 10 hours max, because my GP shared that anything longer than a 10 hour sleep may tire out the muscles that support the body systems when we're at rest. But heck, I'm still tired! So I sleep myself out.

And it's strange... I'll sleep, like, for 12 hours, wake up fine and alert. Then 3 hours later my body sags and my thighs and knees ache a bit. There has got to be more to life then sleep-work-sleep-work and I certainly didn't quit corporate for *this*.

I don't know if it's psychosomatic. I have no motivation at work because of all the crap that's going on. Oh, there's always crap at work but I've never had a burning desire to quit. Now I do. Perhaps I am weakening mentally. Perhaps I am just tired of all this crap. Perhaps my health is declining. Perhaps all these things combined are making me... oh, I don't know.... feel like shit.


Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps! I'm in a funk!