Note to self : try not to doubt

I went to work feeling crappy. And grumpy.

Primarily in my thoughts : Why can't people treat me with the consideration that I give them? Who was the smart ass who said to treat people the way you'd like to be treated yourself? Who said karma goes around?

Hmpf.

Worked hard last night, spent 4 hours trying to do my emails. Didn't nap, didn't take a break for a walkie. Quick smokes. And managed only 36 emails. For fuck's sake, that's like banging my head and bashing out my brains. On the old system I'd averaged 12 - 15 emails per hour! But noooo.... management refuses to consider that new system as bad. After all, *they* launched it.

Hmpf. I left the office feeling, in essense, like shit. Why do I try so hard?

But life has a way of opening your eyes, if only you let it.

My fav small kopitiam was open as I left my building. This shop's nasi lemak rice is .... MMmmmm... fragrant! And terribly nommy. And she was open! and ready! But what struck me was how cheerful and humble the stallholders are. I could see the appeciation in their eyes as I ordered my food (I obviously loved their food!) and they were gracious and delighted to see me. They made me feel good.

Then there was my rode home... hailed a taxi, and found myself in a clean, cooled, COMFORTABLE cab. It's really the luck of the draw with taxis. Some are grubby as all hell. Some have such poor ventilation I have to wind the windown down lest I hurl. Some persist in keeping the radio volume so loud I have to shriek from the back seat.

But today was good! Without asking, cabbie turned the radio channel from mandarin to english. And it turned out the sound system was specially installed. And the ride was smooth. And cabbie was a good conversationalis to boot. My 5 minute ride home felt like the perfect ending.

So.

Does the universe dish out stuff to even things out in the end? Perhaps it bloody well does! I had a GREAT morning to end my shift, I'm feeling good, I'm about to engulf some truly delicious food. How about that karma then?


Yea, my faith in the universe is restored!